Enough hate for now...
Well maybe not...
Some of you may remember that person I used to work for as a Nanny in England, she claims money back... She actually has no right doing that whatsoever... First of all she wanted me coming over and covering all the moving costs. Secondly while I was there she didn't nearly pay me enough for all the work I did there. Yes, she came up with a lot of extras BUT I never asked for it.
Now she and her new Husband got themselves a boat but they are claiming that they do not have the money to survive and that she wants me to pay what I can back as soon as possible. Many people told me after I told them the whole story, that I do not owe her anything and that as a matter of fact she would owe me money. Anyway she spoiled my mood even more with her mails last night.
I hesitate to drop her as a friend on Facebook and block her because of the Boy I took care of.
I just simply can't do it... I know that I'd be better off if I'd have the guts doing that... She nearly killed me by what she and her new ****** husband did to me over 2 years ago... Yes, she partly apologized for some of it and yes, I made mistakes myself but I do not trust her anymore and the only reason I still am in contact with her is because of her son... I love this boy so much still even though we are not really having a lot of contact anymore since I left the house... I miss him so much!!!
Another topic:
Because we received some wedding gifts Chris and I are PROBABLY be able to get married on August the 16th in Columbia. It will be a very very intimate wedding and nothing fancy at all will be possible.
I have made a very very strict calculation which basically will leave me absolutely broke by the end of next month but I MUST see Chris again otherwise I'll go nuts and I know Chris feels the same way... And I will have time off to make it possible too!
So let's hope for the best regarding that!
The only bad thing of the whole trip would be that there is no money at all for any emergency's at all or for even having a proper wedding dinner with the family. But I think that it could be a lot worse! I may just simply get some nice ingredients and cook a nice traditional German dinner or something so it would be something special and I do like cooking - As long as someone else is tidying up the mess I made LOL
You know, I'm always trying to stay positive and not to whine too much but I know that I am a big complainer myself and constantly vent and all that stuff... I'm sorry that I do annoy all of you who may read that...
Life just is too much to deal with... I want to be positive and show a positive attitude but it's so hard to do that... I mean I haven't even mentioned all the things going on. Too many worries, too many negative things... I just wish that Chris's and my life would finally become more stable and that things finally would start working out properly! I'm so fed up with nearly every thing going wrong and me being such a whiny brat!
Life just is too much to deal with... I want to be positive and show a positive attitude but it's so hard to do that... I mean I haven't even mentioned all the things going on. Too many worries, too many negative things... I just wish that Chris's and my life would finally become more stable and that things finally would start working out properly! I'm so fed up with nearly every thing going wrong and me being such a whiny brat!
Another thing that's bugging me: The restrictions the US government has for a married couple moving together when one does not live in the country... - Does not have the citizenship...
It of course isn't enough to be married and to prove that you are in love and all that stuff - NOOOOOO I either have to have a job if I wanna get the Visa OR have to have a sponsor in the US OR Chris would need to be 125% over the poverty-line to be able to support me, otherwise I won't be allowed to get the Visa even WHEN WE ARE MARRIED!
That sucks sooo badly!!!!
I do understand that there have to be restrictions and laws and rules BUT I'm not and imported wife just trying to get citizenship in the states. I do not need to live in the states I would also be happy if Chris and Dad would be able to come to Germany and live here with me! The only thing I want is to be together with Chris and to spend as much time as possible with Dad!
enough whining for today and enough ranting and venting too...
*HUUUUUUGS*
That sucks sooo badly!!!!
I do understand that there have to be restrictions and laws and rules BUT I'm not and imported wife just trying to get citizenship in the states. I do not need to live in the states I would also be happy if Chris and Dad would be able to come to Germany and live here with me! The only thing I want is to be together with Chris and to spend as much time as possible with Dad!
enough whining for today and enough ranting and venting too...
*HUUUUUUGS*
Coco: First of all, I never think of you as a whiny brat. We all need to vent, and writing it down is healthy. People can be so cruel, especially when it comes to money matters. I used to have a mug that had drawings of turkeys and said, "Don't let the turkeys drag you down." It would make me laugh, and feel a litle better. I love you, and wish you much happiness. What does someone need to do to become your sponsor for your green card? Also, my eldest brother lives in Lee's Summit, Missouri (about an hour east of Kansas City), so someday, when my finances are more stable, I plan on visiting them, and would love to see you all in Columbus!! ((({{BIG HUG}})))
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